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Why So Much Stuff?

Whenever you move you always realize exactly how much stuff you really have. The truck that we rented for the move was 17 feet long, and we managed to completely fill it. My friends were saying, ‘Wow you really have a lot of stuff.’ And although I know that they weren’t judging me for it, I started to feel a little ashamed. How did I get all of this stuff, and why do I have it?

After a week of living with only the necessities unpacked, I found that I actually enjoyed having less around. With 20 boxes and an upright couch in my kitchen, I’ve pretty much been spending all of my time in my room avoiding it all. I managed to unpack my clothes and the essentials and am enjoying the big window that fills the space with natural light.

It’s felt so liberating to be free from all of the things I’ve happened to collect over the years. Having all of my things packed up, and the house completely cluttered has given me a chance to explore the new area we live in, and get back into reading. I rediscovered my love for the Vancouver Public Library (side note: Do you have any book recommendations?). I’ve found that I’m taking my time coming home from work, and taking different routes to see which ones are the most enjoyable. I’ve gotten to try new restaurants like The Roundel Cafe and found where to buy groceries. Heck, this week I even mapped out the terrain for exquisite summer bike riding.

But with having no kitchen, things have started to become problematic. I’ve spent an obscene amount of money eating out for every single meal in the past 2 weeks, and feel gross from not eating right. So this weekend my roommate and I decided that it was time to start unpacking. And with my unpacking came my love of getting rid of things.

I started thinking about things that I have and what I don’t need, and there is a lot of it. I started with books. I’m the type of person that likes the look of a full bookshelf. I’ll buy a book rather than borrowing one, read it, then never pick it up again. The thing with that is, I don’t even have a bookshelf anymore (it was my previous roommate’s). So I managed to put aside the majority of 4 boxes of books aside to sell/donate back to our local used bookstores. I also managed to get rid of the stuff in my costume trunk, and I’m sure there will be more!

Have you been doing any Spring cleaning lately?


Moving is taking over my life.

Oh my goodness! My internet connection has been majorly slow lately, and getting organized for moving has taken over my life.  Between painting, cleaning, packing and sleeping, and planning my birthday (Friday! Woo!), the little energy I have left goes into watching movies. I’m excited for life to slow down after this weekend so I can just settle again. And catch up with blogs. Promise.

Procrastination at it’s best


It’s official! I’m moving next Sunday! It’s weird how March is always one of the hardest months for me, yet it still always catches me off guard. This month I’ve dealt with a break in, the first major fight I’ve ever had with my best friend, my boss’ boss’ boss confronting me and possible landlord conflicts. After all of the troubles March has brought me, I’m looking forward to moving on, and moving out into a new place.

Some specs: 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom, garden level, back yard, and big windows in the bedrooms. It’s really close to the area we live in now, but it’s a little quieter. So I’m hoping that will give me more motivation to ride my bike everywhere when I’m bored. And there will only be two of us in the new place, so we’ve decided to make the 3rd bedroom the arts and crafts room! I can’t wait! What I’m not excited about is the fact that I have to paint my current room before the new tenants get here. Why don’t these people like bright green, you ask? I don’t know. I think they’re absolutely crazy. Maybe they’re not human. I think that’s it.

Is it just me, or is it hard for everyone to pack their stuff? I am seriously having a hard time to find the motivation to get started on things the last couple of days, and am using every little excuse not to. ‘Oh! There’s something new in my Reader! I’m hungry! I want to go for a bike ride. I want to look at pictures of tattoos for 2 hours.’ These are not good ways to pack! Yet, it’s incredibly addicting and gets my mind off of stressing about all of the things I have to do. But today I brought my friend over to keep me on track, and it worked quite well. I’d say that I’m about 1/3rd of the way finished, which is great

What was your last moving experience like? How did you stay focused?

It’s not guaranteed that you’ll have a safe landing.

Over the past two weeks I have gone through an emotional roller coaster. I learned a lot about some of my friends that I was completely in the dark about, and learned a lot about myself in the process. With the recent visit of my friend Steve, I was reminded of how much my life has changed in the last two years, and how it has affected me and the people I surround myself with. A lot of it is related to positive personal growth, but I was surprised to find all of the negative under the surface.

I feel that I have lost touch with the internal happiness I used to carry around with me everywhere I go. I used to be the inspired by the slightest things. I’d wake up every morning wide eyed and excited for what was to come. But over the past two years, I feel that I’ve become disconnected. I’ve stopped paying attention to anything but my daily tasks and to do’s, and haven’t put any thought into what I’m doing or what makes me happy. I’ve started judging people and placing their negative qualities before the positive ones. I’ve become lazy and more stubborn, and have closed myself off to a lot of people. I’ve stopped putting in an effort to make friends, and have lost a few along the way.

I’ve wrapped myself in this invisible security blanket and have not wanted to get rid of it. I have a fear of leaving the area of the city that I live in, and am afraid of change. Moving last year was one of the hardest decisions that I had to make, and it took me a long time to build up the courage to make it. Even though I was living in a basement suite that wasn’t in any condition that was enjoyable, I was stuck. After moving to my new house (10 blocks away), I felt completely overwhelmed by the change in my daily activities, and found it hard not to be depressed. Although it was still in the area, the small daily changes caused me a lot of unexpected anxiety. It took me a long time to get used to where I’m living now, but somehow I’m still avoiding change everywhere I go. Change is good!  Why have I been hiding?

Lastly, I’ve realized that I’m not passionate about a particular thing anymore. I used to be into makeup artistry and went to school for it, but I’ve barely used what I’ve learned. I don’t have any interest in pursuing anything with it and have a ton of debt as a result. But when I was in school I loved it. I used to look for inspiration in everything, and now I feel that I put no effort into it. I work day to day, run around the city doing things to cross of my to do list, come home, watch movies and hang out. I don’t have anything that I can pour myself into.

Verdict of all of this rambling: I don’t want to be afraid anymore. I want to become more like the person I was and start living! And I don’t mean going out to bars every weekend, I mean truly getting out there. Making an effort to put a spring in my step when challenges arise, and welcoming them. I’m going to learn to enjoy what we have around us. I’m going to start focusing on photography and hope to take a course this year. I’ve been telling myself so much that I miss school, so I think that this will be a good start. And I’m going to move, and be open to finding somewhere in a new area.

I’m learning to accept change, and feel that this year will be full of it.

Inspiration for a new destination


This weekend marked the best day I’ve had this year to date. The rain subsided on Saturday, and I was up and ready to start my day to enjoy it! In the morning I made my way to volunteer for a few hours at the Canadian Network for International Surgery. A friend of mine had recently passed on the message that they were in need of someone to come in to help with a sewing project, and I was excited to be able to help out! After sewing stomach pieces for 3 hours, I successfully helped them make their deadline, and had a few good laughs along the way.

As some of you know, I’ve been putting money towards ‘Awmber’s DSLR-of-Awesome Fund’ for the last month or so. But I’m afraid that if I get one, I won’t know how to use it. So I’ve been practicing with my film SLRs as much as possible. After volunteering,  I  meandered side streets with Taylor, taking photos of old buildings and pretty flowers (I know. It’s winter, and Vancouver has flowers right now). It has been raining for most of the past couple weeks, that there were so many happy campers roaming the city that day.

While walking, Taylor and I started daydreaming about soon living together, and talking about travel. Both of us have wanted to travel, but none really have. Then I mentioned that I wanted to move to a new city. It’s so interesting how so many of my friends are not from Vancouver. Actually, now that I think of it, most people I have met are transplants from different cities, all from a far distance. It has always seemed so exciting thinking that you would have a fresh start in a new city where ‘no one knows your name’, and you have to fly back to see your family for holidays. Getting to know a new city is like getting to you the person you might marry one day. There’s so much to learn! It seems like such a novelty to me, I guess. And I really want to experience it.

So amongst other things during our heart to heart, I decided that I need to get my act together. I need a serious plan as to where I see myself in 2 years, and I need attainable goals. I need to stop living so day to day and start thinking about my future. In the next 2 weeks, I will be making a Goal Board (I need an inspirational dreamy name for it rather than that, but can’t think of one) that will hang on my door so I can be visually reminded what I am working towards every day.

What I have to go on the board so far:

-Move to one of the following cities within the next 2 years time: Montreal, Toronto or Halifax
-Buy this camera, or another DSLR that I choose instead.
-Try to put $30 into my savings per week

I’m hoping that by seeing what I’m working towards on a daily basis, I will be thinking of them more, and will be more focused on them. Positive thinking helps, too!

How do you get motivated to start making/achieving goals?

You know what I’m excited for?

I have a new saying, and it’s awesome. I’ve been trying to come up with a more positive way of thinking lately, and I’ve come up with, ‘You know what I’m excited for? ….’ It has been working quite well, especially with all of the most recent events that have happened. 

Thursday was my 22nd birthday, and it was awesome! I did exactly what I wanted, and that was to come home, spend time with a couple close friends and watch a horror movie. If you haven’t heard of/seen the french chick slasher, Inside, you haven’t seen anything worth watching. Seriously, I won’t tell you much, but just picture a woman trying to steal another woman’s baby from inside of her. Gore! Everywhere! 

Friday I went out to the Cambie with a bunch of friends, and discovered the shot called Apple Pie. I probably had more than 6 of them, and it was amazing. A lot of my friends that I haven’t seen in a really long time showed, and we all had a blast! We stayed until last call and stumbled to the bus and then home. The whole way home I kept slurring saying, ‘All I need, is some food… some water… and some tylenol.’ And that’s exactly what happened. 

Saturday was one of the best relax days ever. I had no plans (because I thought I’d have the worst hangover ever) and felt awesome. I slept late, took a 2 hour nap after that, and watched more gore and then fell alseep again. 

Today! Today was so jam packed, but so great! I got a haircut for the first time in almost 8 months, and it’s different than any other haircut I’ve had! Shorter on one side, longer on the other and curly all the way around! Afterwards Tom and I went house hunting, as that is the plan for the next little while, until we find somewhere where we can reside after April 30th. We saw one place that was just darling and I want want want it!! But it is really highly priced. After that we saw a couple others that weren’t as nice, but still do-able. 

Tomorrow Taylor, Tom and I are off to see Great Lake Swimmers, which will be just lovely. And the rest of the week is house hunting, curry making and packing time. 

You know what I’m excited for?

Finding a place with heat.
Packing and unpacking.
Spring to finally arrive.
Seattle Folk Life in May.
Pinup hairstyles.